BIG changes ahead of me :)

I absolutely LOVE nights like these when I get so excited and motivated about my future. I have been doing some major soul searching and looking deep inside myself lately to find out exactly what it is I want from my life, goals I want, and people I want in my life. I have encountered some bad people in my lifetime, and instead of being bitter about it Im trying to be positive and thankful for those people, who help me realize the kind of people I DO need/want in my life. I am going to be cutting out the un-necessary people in my life who only bring me down. I am sick of always giving every possible part of me to others, and constantly helping others who I honestly dont know if they would do the same. The problem with me is my pride, and i rarely ask others for help, so I never know if a person would or not. But I am a pretty good judge of character so I know I am making the right choice. I know that the root of alot of my issues is alcohol. Im not going to say that I will never drink again, because that is unrealistic, but I am definitely going to cut it out mostly until summer atleast, when I will be turning 21. I will be taking the ACT for UMC in April, exactly one month from yesterday, and I have set a goal for myself to get a 34, or atleast a 30. I realize this is a very high goal, but I know I am a very smart person, and when I actually study and apply myself, I can do great. And plus a very wise person once told me, Set your goals higher than you want, because even if you dont reach it, you will still get what you want. So I will be focusing on studying for the ACT every single day, and I think I want to try to get on the Dean's list this semester. Im not exactly sure how to do this, but I just know I can do great when I actually try, and Im sick of selling myself short. God put me on this earth for great things, and Im sick of just barely getting by and settling for less than I deserve. I am just so happy and confident in myself right now! Thats alll :) ....Gabe.

.:.Itchy Feet.:.

Soo.. When I think of itchy feet, I think of summer.
What first pops into my mind is mosquito bites.
Mosquito bites in between the toes, or on the
bottom of your feet, or even on the top are the
Worst.Things.Everrrr!!!!! Seriously.
I absolutely LOVE warm weather just for the simple
fact that I dont have to wear shoes. Being barefoot
is by far the most simple thing that makes me genuinely
happy. But where I come from, we dont have them fancy
bug sprayers. Im also from waaaay back in the woods,
where the skeeters thrive. My feet are never spared any
summer. From 20 years of experience, I've learned that
using my hair brush to itch my feet is the best thing. Its
a bittersweet feeling, because the bite itches soooo bad, but
when you itch it, it feels soooo good! ironic. maybe.
Now that im thinkin bout skeeters im dreading summer just
because they ruin my life. They itch, look gross and like I have
some odd disease, and plus now we all gotta worry bout West
Nile Disease. Thanks alot guys. OH and its the worst thing ever
when you are laying in bed, and you hear a mosquito buzzing RIGHT
in your ear, but no matter what you cant find it and kill it!!! And even
if you go completely under the covers, its still Right in your ear!!! aaaaaah.
They are like a bad dream that keeps haunting me. Soooo not excited.